It's Hard to Speak Through Chattering Teeth

by The Will to Survive

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Ethan Morris Straight outta my hometown, and right up my alley. Favorite track: Drab as a Fool.
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released June 22, 2014

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Track Name: The 2nd Apology
Straining out the sediment, sifting out the gold
No matter how small
My worth counted out in pennyweights

That's what friends are for

And suddenly, I think about all of this time spent alone
And how I thought that it was good for me
But it wasn't at all, where I once was well-made filigree
I just fell apart like poorly done soft soldering

We belong with our brother's arms holding on so we're never alone
(That's what friends are for)
Never go to where my eyes can't see, to where I can't be
(That's what friends are for)
And when you lose everything...
(That's what friends are for)

Thoughts of being without anyone who really knows me
Have kept me wide awake
I mean, I knew I was getting lonely, I didn't know that I was getting fake
I never thought I would ever say that I have drifted much too far away
Track Name: Learning to Fly (On the Way Down)
Do you recall the name of the flaw or law that you broke
When you trespassed against me
Well I do

When you were a child, you though you could just go it alone
My son, my boy, well now we're older and you've caught on
We are frail, and that thought is hard to bear

Because it's all just a little bit broader
Than the shoulders on your father's coat
Which you seem to have outgrown
And you, you should have believed in me believing in you
But you grew too heavy for me to hold
And I, I would have trusted in you like you trusted in me
But your arms were never there to break my fall
Because it's all just a little bit bigger than you and me
And that damned light at the end of the tunnel is so hard to see

When you were a child, you though you could just go it alone
My son, my boy, well now we're older and you've caught on
We are frail, and that thought is hard to bear

You're a shell of a man, like a shell in the sand
With no pearls to pawn, you're a motherless fawn
And a colorless dawn
You're a faceless crow to the people you know
You get lost in the flock, like the gears of a clock
Just part of the machine
Track Name: Dim the Lights
Dim the lights so I can hide
And still see your face, I drop your clothes like they're weights
I hold you close and lie through my teeth, but it feels so true
I thought that I was playing you, but my heart was playing me

(Oh my God)
Stay with me tonight and we'll figure out things in the morning
I love you now, though I didn't start out
With the honest intentions that I've got now

You are just like a dream to me
With your hair all amuck and your eyes just waking up
Lock me in your stormy eyed stare and I just fall apart
But that's exactly what I've always wanted

(Oh my God)
Stay with me tonight and we'll figure out things in the morning
I love you now, though I didn't start out
With the honest intentions that I've got now
x2

Up the stairs I carry you and with whispered words
I fill your head with lies
Through the frame and down the hall, into the room
Where your innocence dies x2

I swore I would not, but I'm not the man I thought
And though you played the angel, I saw the lust in your eyes
You led me to lead you where you wanted this to go
And now I think you were more the devil than I

Up the stairs I carry you and with whispered words
I fill your head with lies
Through the frame and down the hall, into the room
Where your innocence died
Track Name: The Open Book (Part One)
So stray from the lightning storm and wade through the muck of us
And hold on to what you know before it leaves
Track Name: The Open Book (Part Two)
Make my way wise and blameless
Curb my tongue and teeth when I am impetuously shameless
With you as my fortress, of whom shall I be afraid

Soft spoken words will get you deeper
For swords that clash against me will meet my armor
Everything is missing... just shades of grey in a tapestry

Fire me as clay and glaze, that I'll grow stronger
For in the hands of the architect, I'll neither stray nor wander
Sand me down, oh carpenter, remove my stain
For a tiny seed choked by dust and weeds, send the rain

Plagued by heat and gnashing teeth, I never meant to fall this deep
Track Name: In This Room
Set me a course from which I will not stray
And I will light our path forever if you stay
I know it seems long, the night with all it's dark
I still have these troubled dreams, where the shadows keep us

Apart love, no it's not enough, my hunger is endless
I'm starving for you
And if you can't trust even in spite of us
Just break it all to pieces in the name of past love

The things you lose are the things you always break
But I could be the stone to withstand your crashing wake
But if you choose to dismiss my good intent
Then we may never know the life we might have spent

Never apart love, no it's not enough
My hunger is endless, I'm starving for you
And if you can't trust even in spite of us
Just break it all to pieces in the name of past love

I watched your expression change in the span of a flutter
of a hummingbird's wings
My heart, it broke, as your smile dropped at the mention
of my romantic intentions
And my face burned in shame as I watched you frantically scramble
for a graceful way to bow out
But if you'd give me a chance, God just something more
than a passing glance

I'm torn apart love, no it's not enough
My hunger is endless, I'm starving for you
And if you can't trust even in spite of us
Just break it all to pieces in the name of past love
Track Name: Drab as a Fool
You were sitting there wishing you were someone different
somewhere else
Didn't you think that might hurt me, because it did
You were sitting there pulling out every single strand of your hair
as I stared at the ceiling from the floor

Everything that I have left was meant for you

You were trying everything you could to try to get under my skin
Well my skin goes miles deep, so try again
I don't know who you've been seeing but it sure as hell's never been me
Because I'm not the leaving type, not this time
Yell at me, call me a bastard and scream like a banshee
If that's what it takes for us to talk it out, call me what you will
You've been living like a secret keeping all your trappings stowed
away inside, like you were something you had to hide
Not this time

Everything that I have left was meant for you

He was a man of wanton lechery
And his corruption settled down in your heart, unseen and unheard
And now his puppet strings make you speak his wickedness to me

You were everything I thought I wanted but you let me down
It's sad to think that though we stayed in the same home
I was still alone, left with nothing but the songs I sang
"It takes awhile to grow anything"
And now I've got someone that you could never be
I see you're nothing but a broken version of
She who never takes my love as nothing more than amnesty
My one regret is that it took me so long to leave
Track Name: Aloof as a Bard
We saw a light from our campfire
So we walked through the trees to see what we could find
We found ourselves at the summit
And on this mountain we found ourselves
Until I saw that you had gone without a word
Right before I'd had the chance to say

I'd have done it all for you, but we didn't follow through
We said a lot, but nothing got through
But I did it all for you, your daughter too
We said a lot, but nothing got through

You took away my faith, my faith in everything that I came here to make
All you gave me was a kingdom who's walls were destined to fall
And though it's said and done, I hope you know

That I did it all for you but we didn't follow through
We said a lot, but nothing got through
I swear I did it all for you, your daughter too
We said a lot, but nothing got through
Track Name: (untitled)
I am not unforgiving, like a storm with gentle hands
I am not in pecking order, an unfinished thought, a half completed verse

Spoken out loud, it's a hard idea to get across
A window stained with soot and rust
Will I refine before I find it's time
To be marked by a stone engraved with names

Spoken like a bright new star that somehow is always waning
A false display of grace so easily washed away
Like a sheen of actor's makeup, which he uses to further his trade
Lines and lines of over-dramatics, well scripted yet poorly played

The life you'll never know was the life you always had
A bracelet made of gold and grass
If I could only speak through these chattering teeth....
What if my judgements are not the virtue that I thought?

I saw your bet and anted up
It seems your pockets don't go as deep as you once thought
You see, I've got more character than I let on, or so I thought

Run away, all I'm good at is running away

Spoken like a bright new star that somehow is always waning
A false display of grace so easily washed away
Like a sheen of actor's makeup, which he uses to further his trade
Lines and lines of over-dramatics, well scripted yet poorly played

Don't speak so unrefined
Don't waste your voice on wasting any more of my time
Do you even think past things like turning every little petty pile of sand
Into a mountain of all the stupid problems that are caused
By the waves of discontent with the lives you can't figure out how to live
But maybe my judgements are not the virtue that I thought...

I felt alive when my heart wouldn't start
I didn't have the patience for another day
Weary with time, I blew out a sigh
And stubbornly drifted away

Tell me it's a sickness, a temporary madness
Tell me that you'll make sense tomorrow